Mondays at work are usually blue.. And today’s even bluer than usual cos of the announcements made…

There’s gonna be some major restructuring. And as everyone knows, restructuring usually involves retrenchment. Loads of people getting axed.

Even though I haven’t been here for long, only a short 8-month stay.. But I really have no idea how to face those people who are leaving. No idea what to say to them, no words of consolation. So this is how it feels..

Some of them who have taught me something along the way, some whom I totally don’t feel anything for, some whom I even dislike.. But it all boiled down to the same emotion as I see them walk to the HR Dept for their letter and cheques.. Speechlessness and helplessness.

I know some are happy they got chosen as this has been something they’ve been wanting to do for a long time. I know some deserve to go cos they haven’t been working hard enough. But it still is difficult.. And I chose the easy way out, to escape. I chose to take the rest of the day off and hide at home. Where I don’t have to think of what to say, how to react, or fake a smile to those who are leaving..

Goodbyes are always hardest to say… No matter how much u dislike the person. Whatever it is, I wish the people who are leaving well. And that they will find better places to work. As for me, I am just going to try my best till the end of this year and see where it leads me…