Put myself through a couple of small tests last week and I think I passed with relatively good scores! I think I have officially moved on from that phase. It is good!

Didn’t expect it to be all over so fast but it did. And I am thankful. For all the support I received from everyone! Life will only get better from now on! I am sure I have left that dark part of my life behind. It had been so dark that I spent all my time trying to reach out for the only ray of light at the end of the tunnel, thinking that I am reaching the light soon.

Ah well. It is all good. Let’s move on.

I have moved on. You should too. Let’s go our separate paths from now on k. I hope this is one thing you can do for me.

It’s been 2.5 weeks since that faithful day. Somehow things doesn’t seem as bad as it was. I had thought I would have a very difficult time getting over the closure, but I was surprised.

I seem to have moved on pretty fast and pretty well. Still feeling down at times, but the feeling of pain has subsided by a lot. There are fewer moments of weaknesses, fewer moments of pain and even fewer moments of missing him.

What is left behind now is just fragments of what had been. And some anger which had never been unleashed. Words that have never been said, and unhappiness which has been bottled up. Maybe that is why there is still anger left in me. Because I never had a chance to let them out. And he never had a chance to know.

I guess it’s too late now though. Too late for regrets. And even if I do manage to unleash the anger, what can it do for me? I guess I can only learn to curb the anger within, swallow the unfairness and live on.

I know all these have happened for a reason. I know it’s for the greater good for me. I know I wasn’t happy towards the last few months of the relationship. And what was left was just me hanging onto the happy memories we had. I will become a better person after all this. And I will definitely be happier.

Actually. I already am.

I have disappeared for quite some time.. Still haven’t quite found the mood or time to restart blogging yet. But I guess it’s still a good start to start talking about stuff I read / hear / experience about at times?

Well, just found out that a blog that I’ve been following since xx years ago, recently got locked by the owner. I was hoping that my guess was not true. We might not know each other personally, but she used to read my old blog before I shut it down, and I still read hers from time to time. Sort of knew her ups and downs, her past relationship all the way up till her current where they dated for a few years and finally got married. Things seemed rosy and happy for her, and I was envying her and hoping that I day I will find my mountain and be able to settle down too.

Until recently. Her last post didn’t seem right. And when I went to visit again today, she has locked her blog indefinitely. I really hope it’s not what I am guessing and I hope everything is fine for her.

Sigh, I hate bad news.

You know how it’s like when you suddenly run out of things to talk about, things to update and stories to tell.

These days, I am having trouble even trying to post a status on Facebook. I would try to type something as short and simple as my mood of the day on Facebook, then before I could even click “Submit”, I would take a look at it, find how ridiculous it looks and end up deleting it. It has happened more than once.

So now, I’ve given up trying to post stuff on Facebook unless something inspires or irritates me that deeply.

And yes, no inspiration for something as short and simple as Twitter and Facebook, would mean it’s worse for my blog. No thoughts, no ideas, no stories, no updates. At All.

I guess this is the time. To take a break from it all. Taking a short hiatus from my blog for now. I will be back I guess. There is still the passion somewhere. Don’t worry, no emo stuff in my life (I think I was more into blogging, Facebooking when I was emo to be honest)..

Goodbye readers.. I will be back!

Saw the latest Julia Roberts movie lately “Eat. Pray. Love”. I think I was pretty much at that life stage a while back. Kinda felt like I could relate to some of the emotions she was going through.

Feeling aimless, moving around with not much love & feelings. Meeting new people, falling in and out of ‘dates’.. Not a very good part of my life and something that I had definitely wanted to move out from but was unable to.

Unfortunately, I wasn’t as rich as she was and I couldn’t take a 1 year break to travel the world. But I did have my fair share of travelling, meeting new friends and catching up with old ones to pick myself up and move on from there.

I learnt to love myself more in the last 4 years after that bad bad episode and I am glad for this very important lesson in my life. If not for that lesson, I wouldn’t be who I am today.

And I am happy to say that I have moved on, from that darkest time of my life and emerged a stronger me! And a very happy and contented person now.. I am truly blessed.

Just celebrated my 2xth birthday a week back.. Spent the week busy, meeting friends, catching up, etc as usual. Loads of Facebook birthday wishes and some reminding me that I am reaching my expiry date of the big 3.

Not much feelings this year initially. Felt like this would probably be just another year, life still goes on.. Meeting my friends, doing the same old stuff, still partying, pubbing, enjoying the single life, etc.

But I was quite surprised to discover something I thought I could never again.. Shan’t say it too early cos it’s really too early to know.. But there is definitely something brewing in me that I haven’t felt for a long time. Let’s just see where all these lead to and I hope, as cliche as it sounds, that after this, my life will never be the same again..